SAVOR
transitive verb
1
: to give flavor to : season
2
a : to have experience of : taste
b : to taste or smell with pleasure : relish
c : to delight in : enjoy
Savoring The Moment.
That is EXACTLY what I am doing.
My sweet boy is home, at least for today.
He spent the last night with us and is going to Auburn with us today.
He will be leaving again either tonight or tomorrow.
However, for the next 12 hours or so, I will be wallowing in complete, and utter happiness.
Savoring Each Moment.
Each and every minute.
Each and every hug.
Each and every time he says, "Mom".
Each and every time he takes my hand.
Each and every kiss.
Each and every laugh.
Each and every smile.
Each and every question.
Each and every look in those beautiful green eyes.
Each and every "I Love You".
Each.
And.
Every
Minute.
Savoring Each Moment.
Savor your moments today, Blog Friends.
Love you MUCH!
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I want to thank each of you for your sweet comments and for all the prayers prayed on behalf of our Family.
I don't really have much of an update for you.
I have not been able to talk to Hayden, nor have I seen him.
We may be able to see him tomorrow night.
I am trying not to get my hopes up, as my heart can not take any more pain.
Basically, right now, I am pretending as if it won't happen and if it does, it will be a wonderful surprise.
I can now talk about it without crying.
That may not sound like much to you, but believe me, it is a HUGE improvement.
My heart still aches for him.
I want to hear him laugh.
I want to get lost in his beautiful green eyes.
I want to feel his arms around my neck.
I want to know he is ok.
I want him home where he belongs.
I must admit, I still don't know how or what to pray.
Quite honestly, praying for His will is hard for me.
I want what I want.
I want him.
I know that is wrong.
You don't have to tell me that.
I'm thankful for this verse found in Romans.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints
in accordance with God's will.
~Romans 8:26-27
I am confident the Spirit is interceding on my behalf at this very moment.
For that I am thankful.
Love you MUCH!
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Gone.
He's. Gone.
My. baby. boy. is. gone.
My heart is broken.
I am hurt.
Sad.
Angry.
Bitter.
I knew there was a chance this day would come.
I knew it was possible.
Yet, I loved a blond haired, 4 year old with all of my heart.
Now, he has been taken from me.
If you don't remember what is happening or if you're new to my blog, here's what's going on
It would be different if she was any kind of parent at all.
She has no education.
No job.
No home.
It makes me physically ill.
Makes me want to vomit.
Do I blame God?
No.
God has a plan and a purpose in ALL of this.
God knows every tear I've cried and has held them in the palm of His hand.
He knows I am mad.
He knows I am sad.
He knows I don't want to pray for her right now.
He knows I want Him to wave a magic wand and fix it all.
He knows I'd rather not cry myself to sleep every night.
He knows I just want to hold him.
He knows I want to smell him.
He knows I lay in his bed so I can be near him.
He knows I wonder where he is.
He knows I worry about what he's eating.
He knows I don't think I can take this anymore.
He knows I want my baby back.
He knows my heart has no idea I didn't give birth to him.
He knows it ALL.
My bitterness.
My anger.
He still loves me.
I don't know how this will end.
I am trusting God.
That is all I can do.
Love you MUCH!
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We spent the day yesterday in Auburn,
where my beloved, Auburn Tigers took on the Tigers of Clemson.
It was a NAIL-BITER!
We finally pulled it out in overtime 27-24.
Did we deserve the win?
Uh, NEGATIVE, but a win is a win and I'll take it any way I can get it.
We didn't get home until 1:30 this morning.
That means I am exhausted!
It was worth it though.
Of course, I have one or two pics to share with you.
Hope you enjoy!
War Eagle!
Me and Hayden
Again
Haley and Hayden waiting for Tiger Walk, I love this smile
Good Times
Hayden
Haley, Hayden and Kylee
Fearless and True
THIS IS AUBURN FOOTBALL
We'll head back to Auburn Saturday for the Auburn vs South Carolina game.
If we don't get our act together, Steve Spurrier and his Gamecocks will embarrass us, BIG TIME!!!
Have a great week, Friends!
Love you MUCH!
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I have told all of you before, all I ever wanted to be when I grew up was a Mom.
I never had aspirations of being a Nurse or a Teacher or any of the other things little girls dream of being when they grow up.
I simply wanted to be a Mom.
We tried for 3 years to have a baby with no success. I cried, I prayed, I got mad, I asked why, I prayed and cried some more, until I literally felt prayed and cried out.
19 years ago today, God proved Himself All Powerful and Faithful when He did what I thought wouldn't ever be possible. He made me a Mom.
Happy Birthday, Haley.
You are truly are a wonderful gift from above. I am so proud of you and the person you are.
I say it all the time, but I really mean it, I would pick you EVERY SINGLE TIME.
I love you more than you will ever know or words could ever say.
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